The truth.

I just can't shut my feelings now. 

The truth I'm about to say may hurt other people's feelings or what-shit but I don't care now. 

If you guys read this, 

please, do not tell him :'( 

There's this time where I help him with his Tumblr. 

He kinda give me the e-mail and password. 

So, I try it on facebook. 

Weather its valid or not. 

Its valid. 

That's when I read his messages..

I know! I'm a mean person. 

If he knows about this, 

He'll definitely hates me :'(..

Aigoo.. I'm crying now.. 

So I read his messages with Ba3sya, 

she's our best friend. 

Who is greatly inlove with Jared Leto. 

A pure Enchelon I must add. 

Did I spell that right? 

So yeah, I read it and I couldn't believe that he was so. . .

How can I put this.. 

I guess the right word is MUSHY :P 

Saying 'I miss her, she's mad at me, fuck my life! I make her cry!, where is she?'

Aww.. :') 

Darn, I can't stop crying now.. 

After I'm done his chat with  Tasha, 

I scroll down and read his chat with Azhar.. 

Which is kinda eww and eww and eww x(

Inggar nyawa ku baca. 

I never knew he was this perverted! 

But its alright because that teenage boys nature :)

Unless you're Yusri Liew...

So I skip reading it because there are so many colorful words I don't wish to know.. 

Then, I read his chat with Aliah's old profile..

That's when I realize that before we dated, he never like me.

Fuck! I'm crying a river now ._.

He said he had to layan me. He's not even willing. 

What girlfriend wouldn't cry!?

A bitch who already cheated millions of times. 

And I just read and read. 

The pain was bearable :')

Then, I read his chat with Aliah's new profile. 

Its getting nicer :D

So now I don't mind :)

After reading that, 

I read his chat with Yasmin. 

That chat makes me realize what a fool I was. 

He hated me from the beginning.. 

But when I ask him, he said that

He likes me before we met when we saw each other in a restaurant but didn't pay attention and  now he loves me.. 

I don't know which one to trust. 

I read again, then, 

There's a time where Yasmin make a status, trash talk about me. 

And he was actually on Yasmin's side. 

He even told Yasmin I got a boyfriend around September. 

That's bullshit dear. 

Mohd Azreeman was my best friend! 

Not boyfriend! 

You know I hate typing long words so i just put "bf"

Can't believe he misunderstood. 

Then, Yasmin told him to lie to me that he has a girlfriend name something something I don't even care. 

Then he said he doesn't want to lie to me. 

Well dear, you lied to me a lot already thank you very much.

It really hurts me.

The pain was unbearable but I just kept reading. 

Then, I read again and it was on September 17-20 I dunno but I know that's the date when we accidentally met in Parkson. 

He told Yasmin that he don't know what to do now. 

Yasmin ask what does he mean. 

He said to her that he really wants me to be his girlfriend. 

I was so shock when I read that part. 

Because I was the one who ask him ._.

So Yasmin said okay, 

I dunno what my feelings was when I read this part. 

Another part of me thinks I should break up with him.

Another part thinks I should just stick with him and act normal. 

So yeah, I chose the 2nd one. 

I can't let a guy like him go. 

I mean, I love him :')

And its like, 

he's the only guy who could make my heart beats fast, 

makes me nervous by just a single glance, 

makes me smile my true smile just by saying one sentence and also, 

the only one who manage to heal my wound heart :')

Oh Emeer Asyraaf , 

you taught me how to fall in love again. 

And I'm still crying. 

Pabo me ;P

Kbye peeps :)

p.s: Once you read this status, you are not allowed to tell a word to people. The only one you can is me. Allah see us from above and if you tell another soul, I hope Allah will  make you have a very unlucky year :)

 

I love you :)

 

Yours Truly,

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