Its keeps piling and piling.

I'm really clueless right now.

Sweety, can you please enlighten me..

Who am I to you? 

I know, I remember you say I'm your girl but,

why do I feel like you're paying more attention to her than me? 

Also, do you think she loves you more than I do? 

NO. 

Yes, I know you longer but that doesn't mean in a short period of time, she loves you more than me. 

I don't want my effort to find time for you to be a waste.

I don't want to know, when I'm chatting with you, you're chatting with two girls and that's me and her.

If you should know, I'm a hacker and hacking people's account is easy as ABC. 

Especially a certain someone's. 

So yeah, I kinda hack yours. 

How can I share my feelings and problems to you when I know, you don't give a fuck !?

And my teacher ask me if both of us could keep a low profile which I'm trying to do but those Form 3 idiots are making it harder. 

Don't you think by not talking to her will solve my problem. 

Actually, IT IS IF YOU DON'T KNOW. 

Plus, SHE KEEPS MAKING STATUSES SAYING SHE LOVES YOU.

That's had enough..

I'm done releasing my moments.. ADIEU :) 

Student Carnival :)

I was so happy during my first school carnival. 

I get to spend more time with him . 

Which is kinda rare... 

And I have to sacrifice my skin :'(

He kinda hug me well.. 

is holding one's waist consider as hugging? 

I 'll consider it as hugging. 

And in front of my friends we take pictures on my phone. 

I was like

'Oie2, ambik gambar' 

and he said 'okay~ later you mesti remember me oh~'

and then, Franz and the others decided to tease.

But I could care less. 

I love sitting close to him, holding his hand, ruffling his hair, pinching his cheeks and also saying Ily's to him .

All he wants to do on that day was making me his model. 

I was like .. NO.

He was kinda sad..

 making cute faces at me ..

a come on.. 

it was so damn freaking cute xD

so I only let one photo been taken ..

and then, we kinda walk around together.. but not close.. 

curse him and his long legs.. 

I have to walk fast to catch up with him -.-.. 

Aliah keep pestering me and my ninja to take pictures but we did lots and lots of time.. 

Sorry girl but I 'forgot' to tell ya ;)

Aliah and Afiq was so cute.

Ninja dude wants to cuddle but the moment he put his arm around me,

his friend, Afiq Mirza, said 

'Oie Meer, iboh mok ber-honeymoon ctok. nun gi asrama ompuan nun. korang buatla sepuas2 hati korang' 

and the others laugh.

if you guess our face was red, yes, it is. 

And his arm was no longer around me much to my dismay -.-.. 

And then, we stare at Aliah and Afiq. 

Ninja thought they were sleeping but I said no, they're cuddling. 

and then he ask, 

'Syu... pinjam paha.. mok jadi bantal'

and then I hit him.. 

My lap is for my future HUSBAND ...

I don't know if he is my jodoh or not.. 

And then, it was time to go back so I help him..

yeah.. me and lia didn't really do job during the carnival :D 

so hey, here's the photo :) 

this is actually our last photo of the day :P

Thank you lia for taking this picture. 

I love you for doing it. 

also,

I love you Asyraaf :) 

Yours Truly,

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The truth.

I just can't shut my feelings now. 

The truth I'm about to say may hurt other people's feelings or what-shit but I don't care now. 

If you guys read this, 

please, do not tell him :'( 

There's this time where I help him with his Tumblr. 

He kinda give me the e-mail and password. 

So, I try it on facebook. 

Weather its valid or not. 

Its valid. 

That's when I read his messages..

I know! I'm a mean person. 

If he knows about this, 

He'll definitely hates me :'(..

Aigoo.. I'm crying now.. 

So I read his messages with Ba3sya, 

she's our best friend. 

Who is greatly inlove with Jared Leto. 

A pure Enchelon I must add. 

Did I spell that right? 

So yeah, I read it and I couldn't believe that he was so. . .

How can I put this.. 

I guess the right word is MUSHY :P 

Saying 'I miss her, she's mad at me, fuck my life! I make her cry!, where is she?'

Aww.. :') 

Darn, I can't stop crying now.. 

After I'm done his chat with  Tasha, 

I scroll down and read his chat with Azhar.. 

Which is kinda eww and eww and eww x(

Inggar nyawa ku baca. 

I never knew he was this perverted! 

But its alright because that teenage boys nature :)

Unless you're Yusri Liew...

So I skip reading it because there are so many colorful words I don't wish to know.. 

Then, I read his chat with Aliah's old profile..

That's when I realize that before we dated, he never like me.

Fuck! I'm crying a river now ._.

He said he had to layan me. He's not even willing. 

What girlfriend wouldn't cry!?

A bitch who already cheated millions of times. 

And I just read and read. 

The pain was bearable :')

Then, I read his chat with Aliah's new profile. 

Its getting nicer :D

So now I don't mind :)

After reading that, 

I read his chat with Yasmin. 

That chat makes me realize what a fool I was. 

He hated me from the beginning.. 

But when I ask him, he said that

He likes me before we met when we saw each other in a restaurant but didn't pay attention and  now he loves me.. 

I don't know which one to trust. 

I read again, then, 

There's a time where Yasmin make a status, trash talk about me. 

And he was actually on Yasmin's side. 

He even told Yasmin I got a boyfriend around September. 

That's bullshit dear. 

Mohd Azreeman was my best friend! 

Not boyfriend! 

You know I hate typing long words so i just put "bf"

Can't believe he misunderstood. 

Then, Yasmin told him to lie to me that he has a girlfriend name something something I don't even care. 

Then he said he doesn't want to lie to me. 

Well dear, you lied to me a lot already thank you very much.

It really hurts me.

The pain was unbearable but I just kept reading. 

Then, I read again and it was on September 17-20 I dunno but I know that's the date when we accidentally met in Parkson. 

He told Yasmin that he don't know what to do now. 

Yasmin ask what does he mean. 

He said to her that he really wants me to be his girlfriend. 

I was so shock when I read that part. 

Because I was the one who ask him ._.

So Yasmin said okay, 

I dunno what my feelings was when I read this part. 

Another part of me thinks I should break up with him.

Another part thinks I should just stick with him and act normal. 

So yeah, I chose the 2nd one. 

I can't let a guy like him go. 

I mean, I love him :')

And its like, 

he's the only guy who could make my heart beats fast, 

makes me nervous by just a single glance, 

makes me smile my true smile just by saying one sentence and also, 

the only one who manage to heal my wound heart :')

Oh Emeer Asyraaf , 

you taught me how to fall in love again. 

And I'm still crying. 

Pabo me ;P

Kbye peeps :)

p.s: Once you read this status, you are not allowed to tell a word to people. The only one you can is me. Allah see us from above and if you tell another soul, I hope Allah will  make you have a very unlucky year :)

 

I love you :)

 

Yours Truly,

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My Questions, His Answers. His Questions, My Answers.

 Well. . 

Recently, I've been asking him so many questions that I thought but never dare to ask him.

Couldn't afford to hurt his feelings..

I guess I should start with his questions first. 

His Questions, My Answers. 

-Are you satisfied with my loyalty towards you?

-I told him sometimes yes and sometimes no. . 

Because, Its not fair that other people get to see him everyday while I have to search for him. 

-What's your biggest wish?

-It was my question actually but he ask so my answer is 'A day with you is all I ever wanted'.

Then he said he'll try his best to make my wish come true :')

-Will you ever turn back to your exes?

-NO I WILL NOT DEAR. If I still love my exes, I wouldn't be here with you.

In my head was, I love you too much to even think about other boys. 

-Do I look like a monkey?

-BHAHAHAHAHAH. Yes you do dear. But you are a cute monkey that belongs to me and only me. 

I was like LOL when I read this question. 

-What do you hate? Just in case for future dating.

-I can't eat seafood.

It has become my phobia.

-I hate being in crowded places/

-Don't put me under the sun for a long time or else I faint. 

He's asking what I hate because he wants to make sure I don't go PMS at him on our first date. 

HAHAHAHA. I pity that guy for having trouble maker me as a girlfriend.

My Questions, His Answers. 

Well. . 

I have more questions that he does.

I'm curious! Can't fight the urge to ask. . 

-If other boys treat me better than you, what would you do?

His answer is pretty long. 

-It lies in your heart. If you think other boys treats you better than me, I guess you have to leave me. 

And then, we fought. He lose, I win xD

-Really?! You don't like me saying your cute?!

-No lah. That's what people my age thinks. 

And then we fought again. He wins. But lucky me, I still get to say he's cute. 

Change the cute to handsome.

-If I cheated, you'll break up with me on the spot right? 

-Nope. I'll investigate first. Why?

I told him the story, and he say he'll be my Watson ^_^

-What is your biggest wish?

Technically, It was my question but he stole it. 

-Me? Just to be with you was all I ever wanted. . . 

Aww!! And I thought he wants to shake hands with Chonny. 

-Once you're bored of me, like other people said, you will leave me. . Is that true? 

-I will not leave you. 

Its short. But I believe him :]

 

-Ros is now single a few days ago. If she makes you have more time with her than me, will you fall for her and leave me?

 

-I won't cause I know your love is pure. Your love is all I need.

 

Aww. 

 

I guess that's it. 

 

I have this really cute photo of him and kyaaa!!

 

Its him hugging a star plushy!

 

His cousin took a photo of it and he doesn't know about it.. 

 

Sweety, if you read this, please do not eat me nor Yasmin. 

 

WE'RE INNOCENT :3

 

Wanna show you the photo but its my prize posession. 

 

Can't share. Well, don't want to actually. 

 

I'm Done.

 

Kbye :)

 

Mornight. 

Yours Truly,

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Exam Week.

Hello. 

 

Today, I'm gonna talk about exam week.

 

Everybody has exams, including adults. 

 

Their exams is making a new project. 

 

If the project satisfied his/her boss, 

 

they got an A.

 

About my school Exam week is kinda different. 

 

We have this OMR paper with SMK Lutong sayings. 

 

Also our 'kertas kajang'.

 

Plus, we're not allowed to fall asleep.

 

Need to put our bags outside. 

 

Tables far away from each other. 

 

That is the 'during exam'.

 

After exams, 

 

We got our papers.

One wrong, rewrite one time or in my KH class cases, 

 

TEN.

 

Life, why are you so cruel.

But here's some tips to stay awake during exam. 

 

Bring sweet.

You can't sleep with the sweetness of the sweets in your mouth right?

Daydream. 

If you're finish, just pretend to study on one question. 

Like just staring at the question but in your head, 

you're in your own world. 

Those are my tips. 

Kbye then readers.

Wish me good luck so that I'll pass it. 

p.s: Good luck to people out there who's having a test this week too.

Yours Truly,

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Smiling Wide right now!

 Must be wondering.. 

Why I'm smiling wide like a guy who has a new car.

Not really. 

Do boys smile wide having a new car? 

Back to my story!

I'm smiling from ear to ear is because finally!

MY GODDAMN BOYFRIEND DECIDED TO CALL

Which is kinda rare because. . .

Its always me doing the calling. 

But, its always him who do the texting. 

weird huh?

I like calling than texting by the way, 

Well. . 

I'm so happy now :'D

Ah life.. 

I love You! 

I'm done. 

Bye bye readers~

Yours Truly,

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Yahooooooo!!

I'm so happy now!

Finally! Sweety talk to Luke-shit guy!

Maybe some of you don't know the stories.. 

Like this. 

My friend, Afrina, 

GIVES MY FUCKING PHONE NUMBER TO THIS LUKE-SHIT GUY!

and of course, 

I felt betrayed because as a friend, 

if you know your friend has a bf or gf,

and her 'admirer' wants his/her phone number. 

DON'T GIVE IT.

I nag her the whole afternoon when I found out. 

Then, this Luke-shit guy talk to me and ask me why I no answer his phone.

DUHH. My simcard is broken dude. 

SUCKS TO BE YOU!! HAHAHAHA. 

And then,  I told Asyraaf about it and well. . 

FINALLY! He talk to Luke and ask Luke nicely to back off!

And I thought my dream of kicking a boy's ass would come true.. 

Oh well, least he cared  ~

Guess what? 

Luke-shit back off! 

Alhamdullilah!

I'm done now. 

Bye bye reader :)

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